I’m talking baby fever & the secret to contentedness

For as long as I can remember, I have always had the strong desire to be a wife & mamma– more than desires, those roles are callings of mine. For years and years I had prayed for my “future husband” and so longed for the day that I would marry my best friend and begin our life together. Here I am now, five months into this life-long adventure, and I’m already thinking that I’ve waited long enough to have a baby of my own… Ok, let’s be real, I was ready to get pregnant on our honeymoon 😉 Think I’m kidding? I literally brought it up to Ethan saying, “I know most people wait a couple years, but… WHY?! Why wait when we could have a mini me/you? Ya??” It didn’t really help when I came across a couple of families on instagram that recently adopted newborns. I then began researching the adoption process and agencies in the Sacramento area. I’ve always had a heart and a desire to adopt. No joke, we were two weeks into marriage and I’m asking him if he is ready both to adopt a newborn and have our own (why wait nine months when we could potentially get matched with a family sooner and adopt, forever changing that sweet baby’s life for the better?). Ethan nervously laughed (maybe to keep from crying?) and said “we should probably wait until we have our own place and are making some money first…” men, always so practical 😉

It is funny to me how easy it is to long for something & then once I have it, to long for the next thing. I don’t think that is necessarily a bad thing, but it is important to be content and grateful for what I do have now. If I am constantly longing for the next season (having a baby<3) then I will easily miss out on the abundance, beauty, and sweetness in this time of just us two. There are still adventures to be had, memories to be made, and alone time to be enjoyed… although we could still do that with a little one, just sayin’… stop it, Sammy… 😉 Yes, I do talk to myself. Sometimes you just gotta! Sometimes we actually need to snap ourselves out of a place of longing and back to a place of contentedness and thankfulness. Cause at the end of the day, I do remember all of the times that I prayed for what I now have. I’m reminded of God’s faithfulness and am encouraged that my time as a mamma is coming and when it does, I will be a mom for the rest of my life. But this time that I have with just Ethan, I will never get this back.

Anyone else find themselves constantly longing for the next season? Singles trying to wish away your singleness in hopes that you will meet your spouse sooner rather than later? Dating but wishing you were married already? Or, like me, married but wishing you had your own baby but you know that it just isn’t time yet? Different circumstances have each of us in these seasons. (I in no way want to make light of couples struggling to get or stay pregnant. My heart breaks for your pain, grief, and heartache.) These desires are GOOD & I believe that they are actually God’s desires for you. Let’s just make sure we aren’t wasting this season in longing for the next. So hope & be excited for the future, but I pray you choose gratitude and contentedness in the season that you are in now. Together, let’s choose to focus on the GOOD that we do have in our lives right now & seek to experience the ABUNDANCE that God offers us in this very season.  And if we choose to trust God Himself to satisfy our desires & instead spend our time getting to know God more & enjoying & being grateful for the beauty of the season we are in, we will see God’s goodness and faithfulness in our lives.  We will see these desires satisfied, if we will only wait and trust long enough for it to come.

So I again remind myself of the secret to contentedness–

G r a t e f u l n e s s

As I turn my attention and thought-life back from what I don’t have to what I do have, my heart overflows with gratefulness. I am grateful to be married to such a kind, faithful, handsome, adventurous, humble, and joyful man of God. Ethan works hard to provide for us, randomly brings me home flowers & smoothie bowls (my fave), prays for me & dreams with me. He is far more incredible (& good-looking;)) than what I even prayed for (& my standards were high!) God was faithful in bringing Ethan into my life. God will be faithful to fulfill the desires that you entrust to Him as well.

This week, may we pause long enough to reflect on the good things in our lives and choose to —

“Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

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PS, just so you know… we are planning on waiting at least a year to have a baby… So in the meantime we will just have fun practicing making… fun memories, like the ones below 😉